~ I love you ~

Things on this journal have been pretty heavy lately, but right now, I wanted to take a break to reflect on my inner mothers for a moment.

My moms are really fantastic. They've taught me all that I know about spirituality and connectedness with the earth and the universe through my intuition. I understand that they are parts of me and, in a sense, I think maybe that's part of the point of their existence. They represent the Divine as I have come to understand it by way of me realizing that I work in partnership with the Divine every day of my life, as do other people. There's wise advice they have given me from within before, such as "All is one, and one is all" and "The answers you seek are within you." These are facts I have held to be true throughout my life, and it's really helped me to develop my perspective on everything and everyone that I've interacted with. Also, when my mothers are present, I can even look at the world with different eyes. My consciousness always remains (meaning no "amnesia blackouts") but when I see the world through their eyes, everything just looks and feels so much more different... It's like, I can see things and the colors will be more vibrant, or I'll look at mundane things and be in awe. I could look at the trees around me and just start to contemplate the journey that it took for all the trees to become what they are today. I could even look at a random animal as if I'm seeing it for the very first time and feel very moved by its existence through all of the years of evolution it took for that specific animal to come into existence at this point in time and in this particular location.

Moving on, though, I also get a lot of my spiritual stuff from my inner mothers too. Some of it may have been absorbed into my brain through various interactions I had throughout my life, but I didn't actively look into witchy sorts of information until I was in my mid-twenties. So I guess I find some of it interesting all the same. I knew how to make things like "spirit dolls" in my mid-teens, even though no one in my family did stuff like that, nor did my friends. At first, my intentions when making dolls like that weren't the nicest towards myself, but eventually I learned to use the dolls compassionately and use them to externally comfort myself for what I was going through during those years. I might make another one again one of these days for healing purposes. Hmm...

And then, I also knew of or learned ways that I could cleanse places I was in. I could do things like clap my hands, sing vocalizations without any lyrics (or with lyrics if I chose), burn incense, open windows, sweep rooms, and things of that nature to get negative or dormant energy to disperse. Then at some point I started to use sage too from time to time, so that's helpful too. Finally, I remember my moms helping me to get through difficult life events with gemstones. I remember on a particular family vacation I was suffering from debilitating anxiety because we were staying in a casino hotel (which I later learned was probably a severe trigger at the time), and I had this agate necklace on. Well, even long after the trip, anytime I would hold or touch that particular necklace's stone, I would feel that same anxiety again. I ended up cleansing it by putting it in a bowl of salt for 24 hours, and it definitely worked. So after that, I understood that energy transfer is definitely a real thing to be mindful of, plus it can be used to your advantage! You can get a stone or even a stuffed animal, for example, and just visualize yourself transferring a desired energy into the object of your choice. It's like charging something with your energy. Then it can maybe give you a better benefit when you come into contact with that object again. Sometimes I've done that with my cooking as well. If I'm in a good mood while I cook, the food tastes better and gives me happier vibes even days after I've been eating it for leftovers. Likewise, if I'm in a bad mood when I cook, the food isn't as good and the vibes I get from the food aren't good either.

There's so much more I could say about all of this stuff, but I think the most important thing is that I remember to tap into my magickal practices from time to time, both in good times and in bad. It will really help with attending to my spiritual health to do that.

Also, please enjoy the video I put at the top of the post. It's one of my favorite songs to listen to.