Gender Affirming Thoughts

My gender thoughts are a little bit funny, I think. It's like... I consider myself to be non-binary, but in a feminine sort of way. It makes me wonder why I call myself non-binary in the first place, but honestly, whatever I call myself, as long as I'm not hurting anybody, I don't see much of a problem with it. I guess the term you'd use for what I am would be "Demi-Girl", but I rather prefer the term "Non-binary Female". While it does sound more technical, I think it fits me perfectly. But, to simplify it, I publicly use the term "Non-binary" and just leave it at that. It's really cool to be able to have that wiggle room to be more androgynous or feminine without constantly having to switch what I refer to myself as.

Moving on from that, though, I think I have something else I'd like to share. Again, it might sound silly, but I think some of the things that I find to be the most gender-affirming at the moment is taking a bath or shower, or doing anything else that makes me have to interact with both my mind and body. I like bathing in particular because in the bath, I can imagine myself kind of like a genderless doll of sorts. I certainly am not a big fan of my chest, but everything else I am okay with. And then after my bath, I get to put on scented lotion that lasts all day and can serve as gender-affirming itself due to both the scent and the way that it makes my skin feel softer. Adding onto the shower/bath aspect of it all, I'd also say that other hygiene things, even just brushing my teeth, bring me a sense of joyful connection to my body.

Then there comes clothing. I'm still trying to discover what it is that I like to wear on the regular, but as it currently stands, I'd say that I'm starting to settle into the niche of dressing business casual whenever I can. The casual look is somewhat acceptable for me, particularly during the Summer months, but otherwise, I like to dress in a way that looks professionally feminine, just without the pencil skirts and things like that... all of this talk of clothes makes me want to go window shopping again soon. I might do that once I get paid again so I can switch out some of the things in my wardrobe that I don't particularly care for anymore with things that I will actually use. I'd love to have a "Minimalist Wardrobe" thing going on where I'd have a limited amount of items that I own, yet I'd have tons of different outfits by being able to mix and match what I wear. That would be so cool. But it's all about the baby steps and trying things out before committing to them.

That's it from me for now. Thank you for listening once again!